200th post!

Can you believe it? This is my 200th post! Wowza!

I am so tired today. Dangerfeet slept relatively well last night (for the first time) and so of course Peanut was up about 8 times, sneezing and coughing and crying. Daddy's cold is spreading! Yay!

So that means that I slept for about four hours, spread into 45 minute increments.

Motherhood! Woo!

I have been thinking a lot about motherhood recently (surprise, right?).

I have been thinking about how I really believed before I had children that the state of motherhood itself would change me. It does, of course, but not in the way I really thought that it would. I thought I would be wiser, more patient, more kind. I am often more patient than I would have thought, but I so often fall short of those ideals I imagined before. I do have a much greater capacity for love and silliness than I would have imagined, and I can play and be in the moment more than I would have anticipated.

But the wisdom? I don't have it. The kindness? I try so hard to treat my children with kindness and respect, but I do snap occasionally (and then feel terrible about it afterwards).

I wonder what you imagined about parenthood that didn't quite turn out the way you thought it would. Leave a comment and let me know.

I have to lay down. Both kids (while covered in snot) are asleep, so I need to close my eyes and try to get 6 minutes of sleep.